As a child when asked what do you want to be when you grow up, many children would answer with an fun or exciting occupation such as a doctor, police officer, actor, singer, and so on. If I was asked that question as a child, I would not have been able to answer. Growing up, I was a shy and self conscious girl who was afraid to be myself. I never knew what I truly wanted in life. Looking back on my childhood, I now see that I did have a passion and it revolved around art. Every person has a dream or goal whether they are aware of it or not.
Childhood memories are usually filled with fun and laughter therefore making it a wonderful time in a person‘s life. However, my childhood was filled with ridicule, bullying, and unkindness. I moved to a new town and was not accepted by my new classmates. I spent a lot of time alone, without friends to play with or talk to. At school, the other children would throw things at me, call me names, and spread rumors. As a result of the cruelty, I did not have a voice. I was afraid to be myself and tried to be as invisible as possible. The sports, groups, and activities I wanted to participate in, I stayed away from because I was scared. In addition to being bullied, I was also verbally abused by my mother and ignored by my father. My mother would call me worthless and a waste of space. Nothing I did was ever good enough for her. While my mother was putting me down, my father was either with my brothers or in front of the television. In my father’s world, I did not exist. I felt like I had nowhere to turn. Looking back, I do not see the reasons why I received so much hatred from everyone. I did my best to try to fit in and not stand out, however it did not stop the humiliation. As a result, I did not know what I truly wanted to do with my life. I felt like I had no goals or dreams to aspire to.
Now that I am an adult and look back at my childhood, I finally see the things that did make me happy. One of...