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MIRAGE…
An illusion that keeps your hopes alive…
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I am in the desert, in the real desert…… looking for the joys that I was seeking all these years. Pursuing the worldly pleasures and out of the necessity for survival I transported myself to the sand dunes thinking that this would bring me to the oasis. But the coming two years look bleaker than ever, apart from the flourishing money and bank balance I see nothing that will make me live like a human being, the kind that I wanted to be all these years.

This brings me to think that you are not supposed to think about yourself, your pleasures, the things that you wanted to do in your life. Sometime I wonder what I really want to do in my life. I was never clear as to who I wanted to be in my life but I was always clear in my mind what I didn't want to be.

I am a hedonist; I have always been…..a hedonist. Joy, which is what I need. And I have only been able to find it when I am alone or with my best friends or when commune with Nature. My village and my family have always been close to me and that's where I find joy. Money doesn't allure me much, I never felt gravitated towards material possession, though I felt a sporadic attraction towards it…..

But the world is so cruel that it makes one go for something that he doesn't want in his life. The case is no different in my case as well. Obligations and responsibilities are so binding that one will have to sacrify everything for these words. I am too obliged by these two words which I will have to bear for my entire life. But why choose a desert and desert your family, that's the question that keeps coming to my mind. The answer is that I have opted for it!!! The reason, in materialistic term, you can say, the urgent need of money!!!! But to me this is a punishment I am imposing upon myself for the faults I have done all these years to myself and to my family. I am...